I have deeply offended xpat. This shocked me, given his extreme good nature. I guess my mistake was forgetting how much self-image people invest in their social associations. Honestly? This is insane to me. But seven billion of you disagree. I’m prepared to argue that you are all nuts and I’m the sole voice of reason, but…with whom? And to what end?
It’s the “labels” things. I avoid labels when thinking about things, but of course that’s impossible when talking about them. At least I got a teeny, tiny insight out of this. Names are good; labels are not. Not to say that labels are necessarily bad; just that they’re not good. Naming something makes it unique, a constant. Labelling something leaves it still a variable.
So when I label Catholics as Obama-dupes, I know a large plurality of them were never fooled. But when people freely join an institution, silence about that organization’s actions is assent. And even when members disagree with the group, attacks on it are taken personally. Always. By every single member. Sometimes almost no offense is taken, sometimes a nerve is hit and and the reaction is severe.
Between having to use labels to communicate, and having to dance around social natures at every turn…I give up. I’m tired. God, I’m sick and tired of trying to be a person. It’s not working. I mean, I just enraged xpat, obviously it’s not working.
I give up. I am losing, or have lost, the ability to profitably communicate with other people. Honest communication, that is. I still delight in honest lies, ie. tales and stories. And still have tales and stories of my own to tell.
But communicating with others? I’m not seeing the benefit to anyone. Are you?
I won’t suddenly retire the blog, and don’t want to. I’m just…burrowing a little deeper for a bit. Several of you can post already here whenever you’d like. I’ll keep the site going and check back in case someone new wants the ability to post. Maybe (probably) put up a post here and there. Maybe crawl back up when spring rolls around. Who knows. But no talk on anything you take seriously; I will inevitably give offense.
You’ve all been wonderful, I wish your host had been. I honestly have not seen another site…ever…with more consistently thoughtful commenters. I know it’s not likely that you’ll keep a community going here, but of course it’s great if you do.
Thank you for visiting this site, and me. When I saw how much I’ve offended xpat, I realized I’ve surely offended you all, probably many times. I am sorry. Meanwhile those I wish to offend are blissfully unaware as they steal and enslave and hate. So, let them. Nothing I can do about it.
Thank you for being a part of this site. It’s been over seven months since it signed off. Maybe that’s why I’m tired; doing a show for 5,000 straight hours will do that to you. So goodbye for now, Channel WORM Co-60 is signing off. God bless you all.